...sometimes i really wish i was more decisive!
i set myself targets or aims in life and always end up getting close to them and then changing my mind or chickening out!

an example of this would be my australian dream. i so want to go but every time i think about it i find something else to occupy my time with.

recently (with the help of this blog) some pretty amazing things have been happening in life which have confused me even further.

over the last few months i have been busy in the kitchen cooking and baking, sharing with you all via the blog and twitter. i've had some amazing comments from readers and chefs alike, including GBBO, Ching-he Huang, John Whaite and Nigel Slater.

my boss took me to a conference at work and encouraged me to follow my passion in cooking and told me to contact someone within the company to see if there was any work i could do around food. amazingly with one small email i was offered some work experience with the product development team. i just need to organise a time to go, and find myself somewhere to stay in London whilst working in the city.

after watching this years bake off i am even more determined to apply for GBBO 2014. so i've made a decision!

when the applications open i am going to take the leap and apply. if i'm lucky enough to get through then i will do my best and get as far as i can.

should i not get through i'm going to return to college and spend some of my savings doing a course in either patisserie, professional that a word? or something along those lines.

and then finally i'll go to australia before i turn 30 and use my new skills to work my way around the country. they are crying out for chefs apparently!

so i've got my revised plan..i just need to stick to it!

Total Saving

a quick update... you can probably tell i havent had much time to blog this last week or so. i have been at work since last tuesday and havent really done anything blog worthy.

some sad news though, which some of you may have heard about on the news if you live in somerset/bristol area.

the man who gave kindly gave me his camera collection a few weeks back sadly passed away last week. he was walking back to his boat with his wife and somehow they both ended up in the water at the harbour side. his wife managed to get out of the water but he was found the following day by the police diving team.

such a tragic accident and so very very sad.

i didn't really know Alan that well but dad went to school with him and his brother and i know he is very upset by it all.

its made me realise how quickly life can be taken away from you, but its also made me more determined to get on with my dreams and also get one of the camera's he gave me repaired to capture these amazing adventures.

more to come soon!